184.5

184.5

185

184.5

I'm back to my new computer, so I'm hoping to get back on track here. My internet access wasn't working so I had to wait for R to get home to use his computer and that made things weird.

I made my goal! I really didn't think I would this week, because I've been eating a lot and not keeping track. To get myself motivated, I asked R to be in a contest with me to see who could lose 10 pounds first. It's easier for him to lose weight, but he had knee surgery, so I can get some advantage with exercise. So, here goes! The race to 10 pounds!

4 breakfast: oatmeal 2, raisins 1, milk 1
4 Total

185

185

184.5

185.5

1 mile. 11:51.

184.75

185.75

Made goal!

1.5 miles. 12:12 pace, 18:18 total
Up to the 1.25 point and back down the other .25

4 oatmeal 2, milk 1, raisins 1
4 slim jim
5 potatoes 2, corn 1, butter 2
13 Total

186.5

Bummer! Okay, but not really. I was hoping for a pound per week, so I'm only looking for 185.75 tomorrow.

Yesterday, I didn't meditate, didn't walk and ate a different breakfast. Let that be a lesson to you little girl!

Great long bike ride with Sheila today. Found new trails all through Smith's and down to the highway.

4 breakfast: oatmeal 2, milk 1, raisins 1
12 clam chowder 5, blue cheese 2, cereal 4, milk 1
7 chicken 2, potatoes 2, corn 1, butter 2
9 ice cream 5, cookies 4
32 Total

185.25

7 breakfast: cereal 6, milk 1
10 caesar salad
10 burnt peanuts 6, circus peanuts 4
19 caramel sundae, 2 apple pies
lots of tostada pizza, slice cinnamon roll
1,000,000 Total

184.5

1 mile. 12:08
Felt alright, especially considering I've had a bad kink in my neck since I woke up. No soreness that I didn't have already. (My hips and knees have been aching, but I don't think it's running related.)

Long haul, long haul, long haul. I need to remind myself of this over and over. This is not something I'm doing for a month or so, it's long term. To reach my goal and lose a pound per week, I'm looking at a year long commitment. It's consistency that will count. Over the short term, it won't seem like much, but in 6 months it will feel amazing.

Also, right now I'm just keeping track of what I eat, not necessarily trying to eat less. Of course, seeing it in black and white makes me more watchful, but if I want to eat right now, then eat away! Not spiraling into oblivion because I've "messed up" is a good goal to have and lesson to learn.

4 breakfast: oatmeal 2, milk 1, raisins 1
7 lunch: bread 4, ham 1, cheese 1, apple 1
2 banana
25 dinner: bk cheeseburger 10, fries 8, hershey's sundae pie 7
38 Total

184

Got the walk in. I've never recorded when I've eaten this much!

4 breakfast: oatmeal 2, milk 1, raisins 1
12 blueberry muffins
1 orange
6 blueberry muffin
10 spaghettios
12 blueberry muffins
2 smoothie
3 butter
50 Total

184.75

Good morning!

Time to go running...

1 mile.
Hit the wrong button on the gps, so I don't know how long it took.

I had that weird indigestion thing again. 6pm is when it started. Ended by 8pm or so. I'm glad it passes quickly.

4 breakfast: oatmeal 2, milk 1, raisins 1
8 lunch: bread 4, meat 1, cheese 3
9 dinner: scallops 7, veggies/almonds 2
10 toaster streudel
31 Total

186

4 oatmeal, milk, raisins
2 banana
8 lunch: bread 4, ham 1, cheese 3
2 smoothie
9 dinner: chicken 3, rice-A-roni 3, corn 1, dressing 2
6 ice cream
31 Total

I took a 30 minute walk with D this morning. I walked at my pace, which felt better. I dislike walking and it feels like such a struggle to walk fast. I'm going to look at it as getting out and moving, not trying to exercise per se. We went up the trail by Brodeur's and up to the snowmobile trail.

186.75

I went for the run even though I didn't want to. I am always surprised at how good running makes me feel. I really really love it. I tried something different today. I tried running with a quicker stride rate. It felt pretty good. When I got tired, I took smaller steps, but tried to keep the turnover rate the same.

1 mile 12:01
Great! Starting just before Moore's and up hill to baseball field driveway. Hello! That time included the big ass hill. Then I just walked to finish up the 30 minutes.

4 oatmeal, milk, raisins
9 lunch: bread 4, cheese 3, ham 1, pear 1
5 ice cream and cone
12 dinner: burger 6, cheese 3, yogurt sauce 1, dressing 2
2 smoothie
32 Total

Shhh! This Is A Secret!

I'm going to be very unoriginal and start a blog about weight loss, fitness and general attempts to improve my life. I used to journal a lot as a teenager, but I don't feel secure in doing that anymore. I can't express everything freely knowing someone could just pick it up and read it. Hiding a journal seems weird. A blog may be read by anyone, but I don't see how anyone could know it was me and there are like 10 buzzillion of them anyway. Needle in a needle stack!

My weigh-in this morning was 186.75. About what I expected. I'd like to try not to be spastic and lose weight gradually. I want to be in this for the long haul, instead of my usual "all on or all off" style. With that in mind, I've got a few small goals for the next few days.

1. Meditate. Also known as sit in the bathroom quietly for 2 minutes to relax. I can sit like I did in yoga class, using a folded towel to prop up my butt. I've set a watch timer for 2 minutes so that I don't have to pay attention to the time. This is a time for me to calm down not only in the morning, but when I feel out of control about eating. It simulates a smoke break for me. I have never really learned to live calmly without smoking. I know it's been over 8 years, but I've spent that 8 years eating to calm myself or being an absolute nervous wreck. It felt good this morning.
2. Exercise. Of course. I'd like to run regularly again. I sure don't want to do it right now :). Run Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, allowing for injury and soreness. My knees have been aching even without running, so I have to be kind to myself and start out at where I'm at. If I can't run a full half-hour, I can finish it out with walking. On the other days, I want to walk 30 minutes.
3. Keep track of food intake. For right now I don't want to limit food, just keep track. Every day and even if I have to estimate. Oh, how that hurts! I like to know exactly and I feel like quitting if I don't know exactly how much I ate. I need to practice being okay with that.

That's enough for now. I'll add in the exercise and food info later... Hey, this was a nice way to begin the day!